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 GIFT1 - SMILE SMILE can't you see i am still me, anti-authority, same philosophy, enjoying life as much as i can i will. trying to create that contagious smile with that passion that I long to succeed in my ways days pass by i am not gonna sit here no more no more no more won't you see your not me why would you want to be your an individual on your own do what you want 'cuz you want to. trying to create that contagious smile with that passion that I long to succeed in my ways days pass by i am not gonna sit here no more no more no more 2 - AGAIN & AGAIN sick and angered by my friends extremely cold and heartless/honest talkin shit behind my back about me to my friends the source a jealous passion towards a spirit stuck in contention and fame just need some time to myself again need to bring back the old days when i was in control of my life again and again just endangered w/ my friends extremely bold and honest i'll be when it comes to me i said i'm sorry but you don't hear me just need some time to myself again need to bring back the old days when i was in control of my life again and again i tried to say that i was sorry to you but you don't think i speak honestly thats ok cause i can move on i'm so sorry....no just need some time to myself again need to bring back the old days when i was in control of my life again and again 3 - EMOTIONAL TIMES life sucks sometimes, friendships turn to lies, a hatred in disguise it brings tears to my eyes, i can see the truth from the neutral side in my mind, confusion cripples me unto my element of control unsureness. emotional times i'm just fine. trauma's etched in my mind, i can see 'em all the time, i've seen my share of pain and suffering, i am just fine, respecting something more than nothing all the time, and it's time, to move on. emotional times i'm just fine. i have seen my faith sailing away, and i have seen my faith's coming back to me, i can see it, coming back to me, i can see it, i can taste it, i can live it cuz i'm just fine emotional times i'm just fine. 4 - NOW i need to be around you and i need to see your eyes on me now and i need to caress your face with mine and i need to know that you care 'cause i bleed in pain when i'm without your soul cuz I love you on a level so high it's hard sometimes I know it's hard sometimes I know i am to me around you we have to be together NOW I'll miss you while I'm gone but here and now is where I belong. will you wait around for me, I hope so 'cause without each other we're wrong 5 - 1 NITE STAND i've come to grips unreality, through fatality, realized just how much happiness brings to me. FIGHT lately doubt and worries inflicted my mind with an illness of ego, worst of it's kind. been so busy unhappy, un-nerved i can see my destiny is chasing me, I am finally happy and ready to go. i had a one nite stand with myself last night, the fright of a lifetime, once again i have proven my strength to myself, alone. 6 - BELIEVED frankly modest speech dishonest eyes upon us like a vulture in the sky hovering carcass moulding earth filthy birth after... friction based upon fiction replacing friendship untrueness concentration speculation heresy is controlling us all this flagrant foul stench upon us overwhelming everybody like an imaginary forklift falsly you point your finger as a scolding mother fucker sucker blamin' evil upon another under that pedistal you hold yourself so high above us i can't imagine what it's like to not give a shit about nothin but your live the whole damn story, led in motion peers are punished for their individuality seperating us all I can't believe that my friends would make such a lie even though it was I that dishonored your trust but it's done and I can't change the past, I'm gonna make this last just believe in me and I'll show you that they're nothing true. live the whole damn story, led in motion peers are punished for their individuality seperating us all 7 - MENTOBE it's ironic, considerate rarity patron of love, higher knowledge engulfs me 'cause, the blast of fate a lesson, to my eyes concerned and overwhelmed theirs were of fear yet i'm feelin' so empty inside and yet it burns so akward this..time there's something with my pride, lies I cannot hide my true side and maybe in distress I can still come out laughing that's the way I am. this little boy proud of helpin' those in need but he's not me but just maybe he could be, i can see it now because, i'm a hero in his eyes temporarily blind this immature kid a spirit as well an angel, hiding by helping and wanting to understand..me... it's somethin' w/ my pride, lies, i cannot hide my true side, and maybe in distress i can still come out laughing that's the way i am... am i hard to recognize? what do i need to realize? why can't i see w/ my own fucking eyes? what do i need to see? 8 - I I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold, I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old, I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight, I cannot believe I lost control of my fate, I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about, I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win, I can't afford to blow this one, I hate myself sometimes, I love myself, I need this way of life because it holds me. I hate myself, sometimes I love myself contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthyness is healthy now I've made it through those lies and deceit, I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore i am sure, now that I've found myself again it feels great I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate. I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about, I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win, I can't afford to blow this one, I hate myself sometimes, I love myself, I need this way of life because it holds me. I hate myself, sometimes I love myself contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthyness is healthy now 9 - MIRROR'S REFLECTION I'm your mirror's reflection, what you don't like about me is what you hate in yourself, you should see through others eyes before you go ahead and make 'em feel like shit stop it but you won't because you hate yourselves images bitch, sometimes i get so frustrated haunting visions in the back of my mind, oh you struck a pose w/ your hand extended open arms in an idiocratic ways you try to lie to yourselves but you can't break through that sacred wisdom of your spirit... use me but you don't want to know me stop it but you won't because you hate yourselves images bitch, sometimes i get so frustrated haunting visions in the back of my mind, oh you struck a pose w/ your hand extended open arms in an idiocratic ways you try to lie to yourselves but you can't break through that sacred wisdom of your spirit... use me but you don't want to know... sometimes I would give anything just to be something more sometimes I would give anything just to be something more sometimes I would give anything, just to be, something more than nothing SOMETHING MORE THAN NOTHING 10 - DRAGGED DOWN I am just a person like you, I am just a fuck-up that's true, but your the only one I'll turn to by my side everyday and night its time to climb out of this big black hole even if i can justify that i am alive and alright your still the one i'll turn to by my side everyday and night it's time to climb out of this big black hole so I cry alone, so I cry alone, I can't believe you drag me down, again. just when i think i'm fine i always then realize that i am the only one to turn to me inside. Everyday and night it's time to climb out of this big black hole. So I cry alone, So I cry alone, I can't belive you drag me down, again. 11 - COMEBACK ill times rollin' lackin the flow ache in my throat and wisdom seems so lost, and yet it's better in ways it's different, i miss those oldschool meditations when relaxing and getting visions was a given w/ my eyes closed i propose a toast, to myself to find the time to ask my lord and galaxy to point me in the right direction, i got my foot in the door i gotta keep on writin' and stay planted to this world, be4 i can take off....please come back to me i need to say goodbye to these old ways stagnant lifestyle's no longer in my way, i gotta keep on movin', so i pray, and wait for a sign from my guides, they help me proceed as i lay, and dream of my future, i miss those times... COMEBACK ..to me. 12 - IMPACT I make an impact on lives through truth as well as lies, I overcome your eyes and leave an etched memory forever, it's my gift, my intentions, are only well, its my gift, fine i lead people everyday, always in the correct way, never lead astray, and leave an etched memory forever an open mind is hard to find. It's my gift, my intentions, are only well. |